a little sadder now
just had a near three hour lunch with joe. its was a painful process at times, of the topic that was revolving around us. there were moments when the tears just welled up, others when i laughed heartily. it was a good 3 hr and it a meant a huge thing to me.
at the end of it all, when joe had mentioned the reason for initiating the lunch appointment..i guess i have officially closed a chapter of my life. even he felt that it was good and happier for me to move on. something that i didn’t expect especially coming it from his friend.
and now, i see it clear. i see the reason why i had wanted it so bad in the first place. and if i had to take a gamble to see if one’s pride is more important, i took it.
i lost the gamble, but i didnt lose it all. at least, my directions are clear now.
like joe aptly put it, if the situation were to differ, it would be him to change it. not me.
4 Comments
Anonymous
Dear Cherie,
take pride and be strong ya! At least after 6 years, u can see it clearer. 6 years is a long long time i must say, am i really admire u for handling it in ur stride. I am also gog through something like tat, but mine is more more complicated. As much as i do not know the whole picture of you ur story, but i do hope i can see some light soon. Sometimes maybe in fact, we try too hard..too hard to make things work…~hugs~
Cheers
Lynn
cherieladieblogs
thanks. where did u read the 6 years from?? we were together for more than 7 years actually..
yeah. i’m just looking at it now like i have no other choice but to move on. that makes it a lot easier i guess..
Anonymous
Oh..i saw it on one of your comments left by your friend..so sorry i got it all mixed up!!
By the way i am the lynn who have left u a few encouraging messages before… 🙂
cherieladieblogs
i wonder where she concluded that also. 🙂
yup, i know.