renewed
last nite, i suddenly went through a bout of depression. my morale took a plunge and i was feeling really miserable. i didnt know why, but i feel so unworthy. it’s like, being 25 years old and nothing to my name. no achievements, no money, no nothing, with a job that’s going no where.
and when i tried calling wei up to seek some comforting words, i didnt get any. he was busy sorting out his bills and making bills payment online since he just got his virus-infected com up and running. i got sore and turned into a bitch, ignored his conversation (ramblings mostly) and hung up the phone, sobbing right after while hugging my going to be tattered but faithful orangey doggy plush. holding it, we both plunged into the depths of misery.
15 mins later, i felt really bad being a bitch and msg him sorry. and his reply totally surprised me.
“no, you dont sound like a bitch. you still sound nice and sweet.. cos u are my sweetie. night dar.”
more tears flowed down my face, but this time it was tears of happiness. i am so touched by his msg, especially since it came from him (who usually is the very act cool, egoistic, doesnt show affection kinda guy) and it being so timely. i felt a little renewed and at ease, and it struck me why for so many years, why i stuck it out with him even though many thought other wise.
this morning, after my daily ritual of checking out jobstreet, i checked on the status of my applications. for the 11 jobs that i had applied for, i was considered for 5 and 1 was in process. now, is that considered good? at least it made me feel a lot better about myself this morning.
i can now begin my day with a smile.
🙂
Cherie
Hi there! Thanks for popping by. I'm Cherie, a ftwm (full-time working mum) to 3 lovely kids (2 boys & a princess) and my motto in life is to BE HAPPY. Sure, life isn't all that smooth but it's the mentality that counts, no? This blog documents my life. Or rather, snippets of my life that has passed me by. I love capturing life memories in the blog and being able to read back and laugh at myself (or anyone). I love to eat (A LOT), travel and paint my own nails so the blog is mostly about that. Is that considered lifestyle? Of cos, the family is also very much an integral part of me so there would be loads of memories about the husband and my kids - Jerry (9yo), Jerome (7yo) and Leia (2.5yo) and everyone else that's close to me. I like documenting the kids' milestones, their growing up years, their achievements (and sometimes, mine), and my struggles and battles with motherhood. It sure ain't easy. I love seeking out good food and travelling, is trigger-happy, love new gadgets, love exploring new places and strives to live life to the fullest. I aspire to travel the world as much as I can, to soak in the different sights across the various continents and visit all the Disneylands in the world (almost there!). Have fun reading and do drop me a comment to say hi! Love, Cherie Lim Find me on Instagram.
7 Comments
missustay
i feel the same. stressful that time keeps going on and yet, i’ve done nothing, have nothing to my name, etc.
everyday jobstreet, jobsdb. and also headache over my hotels. hehe!
i hope we get a job we want! 🙂
cherieladieblogs
yeah! finding the ideal job or something that u really enjoy doing is real hard rite? wish u luck too!
it’s fun reading abt u preparing for the wedding! 🙂
missustay
heh! wait til it’s your turn! 😉
i_believe
Good luck in your job search! Might be my turn soon..
And don’t worry, I think its prob just the PMS acting out. I feel sucky sometimes and after I have a good cry, everything seems better.
Chin up 🙂
cherieladieblogs
thanks for the encouragement!
i feel much better already! (after reading comments here!)
i_believe
wonders of LJ 😛
cherieladieblogs
yeay! i think LJ-land is fun, tho im quite new.
🙂