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its been an emotional morning.

it’s a dread coming to work after spring cleaning my room yesterday. i am so friggin’ tired and i didnt sleep well last night either. and shucks! i didnt do my homework for jap class tonight again! *sigh*

the room packing drained all my energy yesterday. i broke 3 of my nails even though i snipped them 50% shorter the day before. and, im not even 15% done. looks like i have to do a whole lot more of dumping and go through the old stuff. it’s kinda nostalgic when i come across old movie tickets stubs, and pictures of my boy when he was still in the army. and letters that i wrote, but never sent. i came across a nike top that i hardly worn, but used to be precious to me. for years, i kept that tee in the cupboard even tho i never wore it.

yesterday, i looked at the tee, felt odd abt keeping it after all these years and finally threw it into the box where all the old clothes are going. There! be gone from my life! hee.

and oh. back to the emo morning that i had. i tendered my resignation on saturday. my boss didnt come it before i left, so i left the letter on her desk. the moment she came in this morning, she requested to talk to me.

and i tell you.. i dunno why, my tears just flowed. its quite a hard decision to leave a place where u somehow like some of the colleagues very much and am comfortable in. however, i find the lady boss is quite nice to me too. but i cannot justify the frustration that i feel in the scope of my work, the inefficiencies that the boss knows abt herself, the criticism from others leading from it as well as feeling stuck in a rut where my learning capability is limited and i feel like im wasting away my life. and of cos, the long hours, the tiredness, the bad benefits package and the unsatisfying feeling of working.

she asked for the reason. she assured me that my job is not jeopardised even if i have a new manager in the office. even i made mistakes in the brochures. she tried to ask me to stay, despite her observation that my work attitude is going downhill. she offered me a change in job scope. she asked if im willing to try doing other stuff. she even offer to re-look in my remuneration package.

amidst my tears, i told her i’ve made up my mind. i want to be exposed to other industries and maybe try things out in a bigger company. i want to learn new things and not stay here to be a mostly administrative staff. i really appreciate her kindness to talk to me nicely and even attempt to keep me. and i even feel bad that im leaving her despite her kindness.

it was another hard attempt to break the news to my colleagues. i couldnt stop my tears from flowing. oh my, im such an emo freak today.

and yes, my eyes are swollen. im lost about what i am supposed to do, and i havent done anything other than msn and blog today.

Hi there! Thanks for popping by. I'm Cherie, a ftwm (full-time working mum) to 3 lovely kids (2 boys & a princess) and my motto in life is to BE HAPPY. Sure, life isn't all that smooth but it's the mentality that counts, no? This blog documents my life. Or rather, snippets of my life that has passed me by. I love capturing life memories in the blog and being able to read back and laugh at myself (or anyone). I love to eat (A LOT), travel and paint my own nails so the blog is mostly about that. Is that considered lifestyle? Of cos, the family is also very much an integral part of me so there would be loads of memories about the husband and my kids - Jerry (9yo), Jerome (7yo) and Leia (2.5yo) and everyone else that's close to me. I like documenting the kids' milestones, their growing up years, their achievements (and sometimes, mine), and my struggles and battles with motherhood. It sure ain't easy. I love seeking out good food and travelling, is trigger-happy, love new gadgets, love exploring new places and strives to live life to the fullest. I aspire to travel the world as much as I can, to soak in the different sights across the various continents and visit all the Disneylands in the world (almost there!). Have fun reading and do drop me a comment to say hi! Love, Cherie Lim Find me on Instagram.

10 Comments

  • dreamylynn

    well can understand the emotional part.. it’s always hard and sad to leave a place that you been there for a while, know some colleagues and make a friendship with them.. and of course having a nice boss… but i know that you will move on with your life and eventually find something that is better and to your liking…

    for now, cry as much as you can 🙂 and tomorrow will be a better day for you 🙂

  • lilsnooze

    Yes, life can only get better.
    Leaving is not always a bad thing.
    esp since u know your boss treasures your work and your contributions. Can even ask for reference/recommendation letter from her.

  • hamshit

    aw…i totally understand, babe. all the colleagues and nice ppl that we leave behind, how not to turn emo?

    i had to make the diff decision of leaving behind a bunch of great folks last year too. but life’s like that. be grateful that they were there for u during all those times. then all we can do is to try out best to keep in touch:)

    • cherieladieblogs

      it weird. the last time i left for a job, i was perfectly happy and wasnt quite affected. now, i just totally lost it.

      yeah. i agree with you man. must make an effort to keep in touch, but somehow, things wouldnt be the same anymore. but! it also means im progressing with my life, which is something to be happy abt! hee hee.

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