a train of random thoughts
i realized that i think/reflect only when i’m traveling (in buses, in trains, walking home).. and i realized that i also think a lot when im jogging.
if there’s one thing that i can pin point on why i am always feeling inadequate/low self esteem is that i think i am not intelligent enough. i always have the feeling that everyone else seemed to be smarter. 🙁
i am definitely growing fatter. everyone i meet these day tells me that im growing sideways, and a colleague told me yesterday that i looked chubby and he wanted to pinch my cheeks. omg, that kinda freaked me out. this morning, i stepped on the weighing scale and it’s 51!!! needless to say, i came home early today and went jogging. i need to slim down.
i am very fat by my own standards, i cannot stand the fact that every time i sit down, the layers of flabs appear at my tummy. talking about fat, i actually hate being chided for saying that i’m fat because someone else is fatter than i am. doesn’t mean that i’m petite in size and the fact that i looked toned, i am. i am not, and who would know my body better than myself? and seriously, if one is fat, then u should do something about it.. not whine and expect something to happen.. there is no fat women in the world, only lazy women. if the fattest man on can lose half his weight, everyone else can!
seriously, i am really inspired by his determination.
the rounds at the park earlier.. i haven’t been using the nano for runs for a long time since my brother always hog it.. so i saw it lying around last weekend and took it for a run today. played my usual running playlist and i couldn’t help it but smile. so happens that the song that derrick composed is playing. haven’t heard it playing for a while, and it made me think about the past and all… gawd, i suddenly miss him so much.
this week, i am also determined to get home before 8.30pm. so far so good. i enjoy the feeling of stepping out before the sky gets dark.
hmm.. feeling a little sleepy already.. can you believe it? i actually slept at before 11pm last night.
and guess what? i have been snipping my own fringe for the last 6 months!
ok. like i said, totally random.
Cherie
Hi there! Thanks for popping by. I'm Cherie, a ftwm (full-time working mum) to 3 lovely kids (2 boys & a princess) and my motto in life is to BE HAPPY. Sure, life isn't all that smooth but it's the mentality that counts, no? This blog documents my life. Or rather, snippets of my life that has passed me by. I love capturing life memories in the blog and being able to read back and laugh at myself (or anyone). I love to eat (A LOT), travel and paint my own nails so the blog is mostly about that. Is that considered lifestyle? Of cos, the family is also very much an integral part of me so there would be loads of memories about the husband and my kids - Jerry (9yo), Jerome (7yo) and Leia (2.5yo) and everyone else that's close to me. I like documenting the kids' milestones, their growing up years, their achievements (and sometimes, mine), and my struggles and battles with motherhood. It sure ain't easy. I love seeking out good food and travelling, is trigger-happy, love new gadgets, love exploring new places and strives to live life to the fullest. I aspire to travel the world as much as I can, to soak in the different sights across the various continents and visit all the Disneylands in the world (almost there!). Have fun reading and do drop me a comment to say hi! Love, Cherie Lim Find me on Instagram.
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