home alone
i’m home alone.
used to have days of such when i was much younger, especially when gor was in the army or when he and mum were in the states. those were in my poly days..
today, i had one of those home alone days again. gor is working overnight and mum is stuck in rengam because there are no longer 2 train services that run through the town anymore and she can only get back on tomorrow’s morning train.
i am little not too used to the quiet house and had to bolt the door up.
tranquility.
had a slow stroll back home earlier after dinner and movie (jumper) with weiling and stella at yishun 10. i thought about people. their achievements. my achievements (nothing!). life in general. memories. people. situations. materialistic stuffs.
do people tend to compare amongst others? is it like a natural instinct? why do i always feel like im a sore loser in everything? am i lacking confidence in myself? or thinking that i am really falling way behind in everything that i am doing. or could it be that i have set high expectation outta myself and i seemed to be falling behind my own expectations and making myself feel miserable?
focus? purpose? goal? i’m constantly self questioning. something i do not think is healthy but i cannot help it.
should i really take in a really really deep breath and then slOOooooOOOoowly exhale and RELAX?!
i don’t know. i need to find peace within my self.
Cherie
Hi there! Thanks for popping by. I'm Cherie, a ftwm (full-time working mum) to 3 lovely kids (2 boys & a princess) and my motto in life is to BE HAPPY. Sure, life isn't all that smooth but it's the mentality that counts, no? This blog documents my life. Or rather, snippets of my life that has passed me by. I love capturing life memories in the blog and being able to read back and laugh at myself (or anyone). I love to eat (A LOT), travel and paint my own nails so the blog is mostly about that. Is that considered lifestyle? Of cos, the family is also very much an integral part of me so there would be loads of memories about the husband and my kids - Jerry (9yo), Jerome (7yo) and Leia (2.5yo) and everyone else that's close to me. I like documenting the kids' milestones, their growing up years, their achievements (and sometimes, mine), and my struggles and battles with motherhood. It sure ain't easy. I love seeking out good food and travelling, is trigger-happy, love new gadgets, love exploring new places and strives to live life to the fullest. I aspire to travel the world as much as I can, to soak in the different sights across the various continents and visit all the Disneylands in the world (almost there!). Have fun reading and do drop me a comment to say hi! Love, Cherie Lim Find me on Instagram.
2 Comments
damiankoh
i like it when im home alone too..
zazoom
You are not alone too. I feel the same from time to time. Its normal to compare among your peers and see that they achieve more than you but I always try to console myself that similary they may also feel the same like me.
We all tend to see the good achievements that others had got under their wings but failed to see ours. Sometimes achievements may not come in the form of wealth or fame but when you overcome your own milestones and your limits.