• Received some love last week from my aunt in Netherlands. I never got round to blogging about it with all the fatigue I was battling and the rough week I had. And so, she painstakingly sent Jerry some presents! She sent a parcel to a friend and my stuff took a free ride along with the stuff and had her friend pop over to pass me the gifts! It was special.. She sent me some baby shower chocolates from netherlands. Those who went to my wedding would have tasted the Dutch bridal sweets that I served before the dinner and now, Jerry got some really special Dutch baby shower chocolates…

  • i get confused sometimes!

    wait. make that ALL THE TIME. ever since the little bub came along, i am not so sure about my status anymore. or when the husband is referring to me.. or the baby. this happened last evening, and i thought it was rather funny. hubby (h): what is my baby doing? me: (assuming he was referring to me) waiting for the hubby to come home and have dinner lor. where is my hubby? (15 secs later) me: wait! you asking about the big baby (me) or the small baby? h: you lah! i am soooooo confused! i dunno when he is referring to me and when he is referring to…

  • wee bit of sanity installed.

    i was going crazy a couple of days back. the baby has been giving regular bouts of crankiness at specific intervals and timing and i figured, he’s colicky. but while i have tried the usual ways to soothe a colicky baby (warm baths, massage, colic hold, and eventually, letting the baby cry out loud), my mother has been given me the stare for letting the baby cry and she cannot stand it but to come and carry (read: snatch) the baby up. mad frustrating. like it helped matters, the baby still cried on anyway. does not help that the husband decided not to do anything and went with the flow…

  • Update at 26 days old

    He has upgraded to being a koala lately! Since my last update a week ago, I have since moved Jerry back into the cot and he sleeps there on all occasions, except the times where I am in the bathroom or expressing milk. He goes into the rocker during those brief moments or the sofa, but briefly. I didn’t blog about it in fear of jinxing it, but I think he’s pretty ok these days. His heat rashes has since cleared up quite a bit, but he has developed some fungi rash (!) at some other parts of his body! He is still peeling like a snake so the pd…

  • of party woes

    i really should have known better. after all, i organized that many events in my job but i didn’t do any prep work for the full month party until it was wayyyyyyy too late. *sigh* ok. it was also coupled with the fact that it was major adjustment on my end with my new role as a mother grappling on all baby-related issues, rolled together with all-time fatigue that i am feeling. man, it’s exhausting. besides, the man aint helping. he left everything to my device, didn’t help source or suggest anything at all (other than to provide the defacto venue suggestion) and didn’t give much comments even when presented…

  • am boiling mad.

    i think my son is drunk on milk. i really had enough of my mum stuffing milk into my son’s mouth ALL THE TIME. she is doing what, hourly feeds?! and she does it quietly without letting me know even though i am in the same house. just because i am in my own room and not in the sight of the baby all the time. and now, the damn baby is cranky the entire afternoon and refuses to be soothed and i don’t know what is wrong because my schedule/routine is all messed up by my damn mother. her words changes every damn day and i really had it…

  • A quick update.

    Guess what?! I have mastered the art of sleeping through my baby’s cries! Nah. I’m joking, but fatigue had me so bad, I heard the cries but simply didn’t have the strength to even pull myself out from bed. I guess all that late nights, intermittent sleep and stress has overwhelmed me this morning that I just slept and slept. I did crawl outta bed for an hr for my massage (my mum screamed at me like 10 times before I struggled to wake cos the massage lady is here, only to doze off during the massage), and promptly after.. Collapsed in bed again. It was as though I lost…

  • An encouraging quote.

    Think of your baby as the bearer of a wonderful life challenge. After all, each of us has a host of lessons to learn in life, and we never know who or what is going to be the teacher. In this case, it’s your baby.Quote from Secrets of the Baby Whisperer. How apt. Anyway, thanks to hubby, I managed to do a 3-hr nap! Am still tired but much better. Why am I sucha a sleepyhead? Never seemed to be able to catch up with the sleep debt. Ok. Dinner time! Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

  • ok. culprit found!

    meanwhile, i think all those little naps that i have taken during mid day.. and all those nights that my mum relieved me from taking care of the baby has been pushing the baby AWAY from me! der and me found out yesterday that… only my mum can soothe Jerry! when he fusses and we tried to soothe him, he gets from irritated to major rage, howling the house down and nothing, nothing that we do can soothe him. then comes my mum. she just plonks the baby on her chest (koala position) and the baby goes quiet within seconds. how can that be?! and now, i am beginning to…

  • ok. the world is at peace now.

    and hopefully, i don’t jinx it by blogging this down. thank you all for the advice and help that came pouring in by the torrents after my last entry, be it on lj or on facebook. wah! suddenly feel very loved and cared for. thank you all for making my day a better one and taking my mind off things (to reply your comments!). for the record, i have also taken to drawing a lot of lines and columns in my daily recording book for jerry on his feeds, pees, poos, and my milk production to ease my stress levels. they say, doing simple, easy and no brainer stuff helps…