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May 19, 2011 / 26 Comments

15 days, i’m all ready to throw my jerry outta the window.

from last night, he has been fussing non stop.. crying for extended periods of time.. my mum took over to soothe him after the husband lost his cool and started shouting at the baby and slamming the room door.

the baby cried all night, the hubby slept all night.

jerry finally stopped fussing at 8am this morning and went to take a precious 3 hr nap. i barely slept, my mum barely slept and today, we both are zombiefied creatures, but guess what? after he woke at 12+ for a feed, he has been CRANKY all over again and is fussing non stop until now.

its my turn to lose my cool. seriously, with the lack of sleep and a hungry stomach (i had nothing since this morning except 4 miserable pieces of zwee kuay that my mum bought from the market. she’s too tired to cook and told me to drink soup to tahan and let her rest, i’m hungry but feel bad to tire her even more so am going hungry).. with a bloody crying and fussing baby, i really stare at the window and have the urge to throw him out just to get the cries off my ears. post natal depression perhaps? i just want my sleep and to the hell with being the milk factory. i cannot even sleep in peace when i do have the chance because the milk bombs are always ready to burst and its damnn sore.

as for the crying baby, i have the urge to storm out to get some gripe water or sleeping pills to stuff the baby with, regardless if its colic or what not. i’m dog-tired and am definitely not in the sane mind right now.

to make matter worse, the hubby gave me grief for the last blog entry that i wrote. because he feels that i shouldnt have wrote what i wrote. but its my blog, my space to air my thoughts and i don’t care who in the world reads it and seriously, i dont give a damn anymore. so says the same with this entry. i am not locking it up.

if only i could tender my resignation as a mother, in the beginning.. i was never maternal to begin with.. i dont like kids and im bloody stuck with a crying baby now. i rather be working my arse off right this moment, and i just told my mum to take over the crying baby because after 3 hrs and perpetual hungry at the back of my mind, i cannot take it anymore. i lost it. i dont want to go near the baby. i had enough putting him down and hear him crying non-stop, carry him and continue crying!! checked temperature and he’s ok. already rubbed ruyi oil on him as well. what else could i do? i want a remote control man. if only babies come with a mute button.

am going to munch on chocolates now, if not, i think i’ll be collapsing next.



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Hi there! Thanks for popping by. I'm Cherie, a ftwm (full-time working mum) to 3 lovely kids (2 boys & a princess) and my motto in life is to BE HAPPY. Sure, life isn't all that smooth but it's the mentality that counts, no? This blog documents my life. Or rather, snippets of my life that has passed me by. I love capturing life memories in the blog and being able to read back and laugh at myself (or anyone). I love to eat (A LOT), travel and paint my own nails so the blog is mostly about that. Is that considered lifestyle? Of cos, the family is also very much an integral part of me so there would be loads of memories about the husband and my kids - Jerry (9yo), Jerome (7yo) and Leia (2.5yo) and everyone else that's close to me. I like documenting the kids' milestones, their growing up years, their achievements (and sometimes, mine), and my struggles and battles with motherhood. It sure ain't easy. I love seeking out good food and travelling, is trigger-happy, love new gadgets, love exploring new places and strives to live life to the fullest. I aspire to travel the world as much as I can, to soak in the different sights across the various continents and visit all the Disneylands in the world (almost there!). Have fun reading and do drop me a comment to say hi! Love, Cherie Lim Find me on Instagram.

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26 Comments

  • siyue

    May 19, 2011 at 9:02 am Reply

    Babe.. *hug*

    Do you have those rocking baby chair? Or you can try those thingy hang on the ceiling and will rock up and down (sorry I have no idea what they are called)… my niece slept when she’s in those thing but cried otherwise.. when she was a bb.

    • cherieladieblogs

      May 19, 2011 at 9:04 am Reply

      the whole point is, i dont want to rock the baby because it would mean they will need someone to rock them to sleep in the future.

      i wanted the baby to self soothe, if not.. its v taxing to care for the baby cos it will fuss more.

      • siyue

        May 19, 2011 at 9:07 am Reply

        Not really, we only rock her for 5 minutes.. once she fell asleep we just leave her there.. and she grew out of it herself in a few months (like she eventually just want to lie in baby cot instead of the rocking thing on her own). 🙂

        I think they felt more secured in that rocking thing.. cos it’s all wrapped up… similar feeling to how they felt when they were still in mommy’s tummy?

        Oh do you have the baby bean pillow thingy? Put that on Jerry’s chest… he might be feeling scared?

  • missustay

    May 19, 2011 at 9:19 am Reply

    hmm..gripe water doesn’t help much. ok, it didn’t help at all in my case. we had to wait til T grew out of the stage himself. ridwind was quite helpful in getting the gas out.

    oh yes, like your friend recommended, swaddling. T doesn’t like it and if i use the traditional cloth to swaddle him. he wriggles out of it in no time!

    a LJ friend recommended SwaddleMe which was much more secure and did helped keeping T more secure and thus, asleep longer. i bought it during his colic time. now T can wriggle his hands out but i like how it works as a blanket that he can’t kick away!

    i remember being hungry but too tired to eat too. keep some munchies in your room so you can sustain yourself in such times? besides, you’ll feel hunger at odd hours in the night too.

    hang in there! it WILL get better. i was going crazy with mr velcro always fussing too. but once he knows how to play and smile, you’ll feel all’s worth it. 🙂

    • cherieladieblogs

      May 19, 2011 at 9:29 am Reply

      yeah. i read that the gripe water didnt help in jzlyn case as well. hmm. maybe i can try ridwind? i do find that his stomach has quite a bit of wind tho. blurp him for very long but can’t get it out.. and the ruyi oil like has no effect.

      i got the swaddleme! not working. he hates to be in it. screams the house down when i even attempt to put him in.

      weirdly, my mum doesn have her way to getting the baby to stop crying (for a short while). i can’t even manage that.

      chocolates are my best friends now.

  • Anonymous

    May 19, 2011 at 9:39 am Reply

    comfort

    I am a silent reader with a kid of 21mths. I remember when my kid was just as young, there was once when he refused to sleep from 10pm till 6am… my husband and I didnt get to sleep at all plus we were staying alone with no one to help…i cant help you much but i hope to give you comfort that you are not alone, and it does indeed get better after the 1st month.
    As first time parents, we get very stressed.. an experience mum told me “treat your kid as if it was your 3rd or 4th kid and just relax.. dont stick to rules or guidebooks and just go with the flow..if you need to give him pacifier, just give it to him, dont worry abt naysayers and just live for the moment and do what it takes to make the current situation better” i thought that was helpful…

    • cherieladieblogs

      May 19, 2011 at 9:43 am Reply

      Re: comfort

      hi there,

      thanks so much for the reassurance and advice. it is comforting to know that i am not alone and i guess i might just be stressing myself up too much with my ‘pre-determined’ rules that i want for the baby.

      hopefully it’s just one bad day.. and i’ll ride out of it soon.

      🙂 i shall learn to relax more!!

  • zazoom

    May 20, 2011 at 1:52 am Reply

    Hugs. Hope i am not too late to post my support.

    Claire had her trantrums too. I remember that time during xmas period she refused to sleep the whole nite (for almost a week) and wants to be carry and walk ard if not she cried the whole house down.

    I still remember those days whereby I end up sling her and walk ard the house and sling her and sat on the bed to sleep! Cos she refused to leave our carry. 🙁

    Tried ridwind, ru yi oil, musical cot mobile, rocking chair and they all only worked for a while. All she wanted then was to be carried.

    Yes its not easy and there are times you wondered why other pple babies dun have such problem etc. So dun give up and hang in there. Jerry will be good boy soon.

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