Life. - Cherieladie;

When one’s depressed, on the brink of a nervous breakdown and feel like you are at your wit’s end and nothing seemed to go right.. You end up doing silly things. Because you couldn’t quite think straight and you just want to end it all.

Exactly like how the recent news of the young mother that brought her son to drown with her at the reservoir. I empathize with her. We are the same age.

Tipping point.

Funny. Tipping point I mean. Reminds me of a book the husband used to read.

I think I’m there. At the point, of tipping over.

And I thought of a silly act. No. I didn’t just think. I had to act it out too..

So yeah, I say my goodbyes.
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I packed my bag, took the baby with me and ran away from home. Not telling anyone where I went. Feeling every bit rebellious and right.

Anyway, I popped out for some window shopping, enjoyed a butterscotch ice cream without a care in the world, and ignored that ringing phone of mine.

Sometimes, all you need is that little break. To recharge yourself, clear your mind off things. Stop dwelling and start looking around you. Ok. and I spotted that mcd had butterscotch ice cream cones for 80cents (I love butterscotch!) and enjoyed every single bit of it.

Well, you didnt think I was going to die, did you? My life’s too precious for that and I think I love myself more than anyone else. There are so many more countries I want to visit still. Haha.

I sat around and watched the world go by, lazed around at a bus stop to blog this out. Hoping that someone would understand me someday. That I am not really having an easy life, and things ain’t that beautiful and smooth sailing. and do not take me for granted.

Anyway, I’m feeling much better now though still angry.

Tomorrow would be a better day. =)

At least I can still hope for the better.

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8 Comments

ikedee

October 9, 2011 at 2:42 pm Reply

I hope you r feeling much better after your escapade? Take care and mega hugs!!

cherieladieblogs

October 9, 2011 at 3:23 pm Reply

yup. much better! sometimes, i guess it does the soul good to take a big fat breath, and try to look at things from another perspective.

i’m ready to battle the week ahead!

vanstels

October 9, 2011 at 2:46 pm Reply

I know it is easy for me to say but I really hope you do take care. You scared me for a moment but I’m glad to know that you love yourself and baby to do something scary. In fact, you looked on the brighter side of things. Nevertheless, take care. If you need to list down the stuff for your hubby to do or take over, just do it.

cherieladieblogs

October 9, 2011 at 3:30 pm Reply

don’t worry, i am fine. I just like to complain and be a drama queen.. i always think i am the fighter, i hardly ever let things get me down. even if they do, i try to bounce back and fight it off. 🙂

thanks for the concern!

how are the preps? your posts are dwindling!