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Protected: my feeling..
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at 12 weeks, day 5.
i just celebrated my birthday yesterday and i was feeling happy and blessed about everything that i have and the people around me and thinking the weekend is just gonna be great… until the husband broke the news while he was accompanying me for my haircut this morning. i mean, i seriously am very thankful for his thoughtfulness for holding the news so that i can celebrate my birthday happily and him bearing all the bad news alone and keeping it to himself. it must have been really hard for him. the baby is at 12 weeks and day 5 today. i was so looking forward for next week to…
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childless tonight.
missing my little bundle of joy. my baby frolicking around my granduncle’s shop in jb my baby is away in Malaysia for a family wedding for the weekend and won’t be back till tomorrow. we came back this afternoon for a friend’s wedding and baby stayed with my mum since there’ll be no one around when we go work tomorrow morning. I thought we’ll enjoy the alone couple time much, but I find myself missing jerry a lot. it didn’t help where we had a 2.5yo sitting with us at the wedding tonight. ah.. separation anxiety. I thought I was pretty cool with it, but looks like…
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Protected: trust, what trust?
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End of year.
i have been tardy about updating here, and am especially guilty that the posts of my baby is getting lesser and lesser. and before i know it, the year is coming to an end! as i think back about the year went by, its easy to conclude that i haven’t done much for the year and it seems that i haven’t achieved much because life seems same old, same old. BUT! i thought harder and then maybe, i think im just a little too hard on myself. This year, i survived through 9 10 months of pregnancy and gave birth to baby jerry. and i think i can claim a…
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steve jobs.
or rather, his passing away. i think i was one of those slower ones to get the news because i havent been really active on twitter or any other form of social media lately. i think i have regressed into being a hermit this days because of my tiredness. i only got the news from my colleague while we were both stuck in the lift making small talk the other day. and shocked i am, to hear to news. to hear that the world lost a well-loved person, one that changed the way of lives for a lot of people. one that encourages people to think out of the box…
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life back at work as a mummy.
been wanting to jot down my thoughts but i have been sooooo tired lately. i crashed out while doing things halfway every night and i sleep in the most odd manner. i havent had a decent conversation with the husband for days.. but i’m surviving. and thankfully for the rain yesterday morning and a nice husband who said yes to sending me to work when i nicely asked. we finally had proper conversations (non-baby related) in the car on the way here listening to class 95 while being stuck in the morning traffic jam that was amplified by the heavy rain. i should be thankful for traffic jam, because it…
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It’s all about food!
Finally, my boy knocks out in bed and I can have some free time to myself for a while before the husband comes home and the next window for expressing breastmilk/washing of bottles rolls along. I am beginning to think I am so not suited for motherhood and I think I lack maternal instincts! I am soooo tired that I am grateful for any moment that the baby is taken off my hands. But I feel terribly guilty for feeling that way afterwards. how do you mothers do it? I feel like I have nothing else left in me and no energy to go on. The only times that I…
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Protected: Hmmm.. secrets of my mind.
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the traveler in me.
i just can’t help it but wonder… when will i be able to travel and see the world again? there’s one dream that i always wanted to live out, albeit an expensive & luxurious one. that is traveling on the orient express to bangkok. this dream became a lot more compelling when news about the KTMB train station in tanjong pagar is going to be relocated in july. i have since traveled via the train from that old station many many times as a kid and back in the past, it was the most convenient and only mode of transport for me to get to my grandpa’s place in rengam.…
