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Protected: stressful lunch
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bored
it’s a lazy morning. i sorta refused to do any work.. unless really critical. had dinner with johnny the other day after 5 games of billard. he said that to be in my job.. one must really have the drive. it got me thinking.. did i ever have the drive? or have i lost the drive? or is it a plain situation that it is not in me, hence not apt for the job. boo. the whole of yesterday was filled with meetings and meetings.. dozed off in one, almost dozed off in another and the last one that last till 7pm at night, i was munching non stop for…
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of late
i seemed to be sinking.. especially at w.o.r.k. maybe i really lost the m.o.t.i.v.a.t.i.o.n. just read an ex-colleague blog who’s marketing assistant just quit because he thinks the jobs doesn’t suit him. these days.. i am beginning to think my job doesn’t suit me. blah. in other news.. *SCREAMS* AHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh!!! my flickr pro account is gonna expire in 2 days!!!! my pictures!! i need a gift from someone! 🙁 Boo.
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It’s dark
Look at the sky.. I slept 2 hours last night and struggled to wake at 5.45am. My eyes are so tired from the lack of sleep the entire week that i can’t open my left eye. It’s painful and annoying. I hope it’s better in 1-2 hours time. For now, i’m blinded in one eye!! The only good news is that my nightmare will soon be over and done with. Just a couple of hours more. I’m doing the drill of mentally rehearsal all the items, things that need to be done in the process. My mind feels fried and it’s been so tight recently that i actually worry about…
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17hours.
I just stepped out from the office.. After 17hours of non stop working. Meetings in the morning ain’t a good idea. Briefing ain’t my forte. Editing and scrambling makes the most of my day, and then it’s fire fighting and loads of menial work. All for my event on the 18th, this friday. I’m so so tired. I wished i didn’t have to work tomorrow.. =( 2 more days to go. I swear i’ll sleep like a pig on the weekends and shut my phone! [mobile post on journey home @ boon keng road]
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4th day into the new year.. my watch reads 1.4FR. looks like april’s fool to me. i am not very the happy today. shed quite a bit of tears, was told i am lost, i feel lost and then i also started questioning my own self worth. you know.. everyone says im creative. i think that is too big a hat to wear. i am not, and i don’t want to be. it is hard living up to people’s expectations. as much as i want to quit, my mind says i shouldn’t be a quitter. i think about my life now and i think it is in such a mess.…
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elo, is it a public holiday today?
my phone alarm rang this morning and i dragged myself outta bed to head to the bathroom.. and then it hit me.. damn! it’s a public holiday today! i ALMOST went on my daily routine and went to work. thank god i realised it before i stepped into the showers and crawled back into bed. i didn’t manage to sleep well. There were tonnes of work to be done. I had an event coming up in mid-jan and coupled that with running 2 nation-wide campaigns, i feel so ready to die. i was just telling my managers after our meeting yesterday that I feel as though im getting married.. the…
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2nd last day
I’m down to my official 2nd last day of work.. Too much to clear.. Too little time. That’s ALWAYS the case, isn’t it? Well, the way the dynamics at my workplace work, i am so gonna be glued to my pc while i’m on leave, madly clearing work. Sadly, i’m heading back on the 27th for a presentation.. What kind of leave is this?! It’s 10mins to 9am, but i just stepped into the train. =( I cried last night. Haven’t cried for a long time. Feel kinda lost. Somehow, i realised that i no longer know what i want. No longer think the way i used to. Maybe i’m…
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Back to sanity
Alarm rings at 7.30am. No more “khao rai” and “ke koon ka”, no more tom yam soups for meals and doing all buying in baht. Am back to reality, standing in the train, rocking my way to work.. And gonna be really late. =( I’m super tired! All thanks to the flight that delayed for 2 hours and i got into singapore past midnight. Coupled that with the long journey home and the slight unpacking and getting organized.. I slept almost at 4am. So wished that i could take a day off today.. But i can’t. My cough still isn’t going away, but think it’s getting slightly better except for…
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Unhappy
Last night i was on the verge of tears. Frustration sets in. Too much to do, too little time. Frustration on why it’s so unfair. Frustration on everything. Then came along someone who called. I was down in the dumps and really not in the mood to talk. Not to someone who doesn’t make me feel any better. And i was accused, of being not loving. Sometimes, i wish i could just call quits. On the job, on him, on everything. Why are things so hard when it could have been simple? And easy? I think after fighting for so long, i just want to quit and be a loser…
